Time for Twins

On Wednesday morning, June 14th Kevin went back to work for the 1st day since our delivery. He was working at Barbers, so he left out really early that morning around 2:30. Around 3:00 that morning I woke up with sharp back pains and stomach pains. Over 30 minutes it got a lot worse. I had been having problems being constipated, but I really thought that was all it was so I tried going to the bathroom. I delivered our baby right there in the bathroom. I was in shock and trauma and all I did was scream for about 5 minutes and I remember feeling so sad that you were delivered and that I didn't know the signs enough to know to go to the hospital. I didn't know if I should cut the cord or not and was in such shock I didn't think about it. I finally made it into our room and called Kevin and told him what happened. He called his mom to come get me and take me to the hospital. He had already gotten in his work truck, so he was going to meet us. She picked me up and we headed to the hospital. My mom and dad met us at the emergency room also. Our 2nd baby was another boy. We named him Christian David Lloyd. We chose David after my Papaw. They brought him in for us to see him and he was wearing a white gown with a blue blanket behind him. He was a little more developed than his brother, but not much. He looked at peace also. His body was really red, his eyes still swollen shut and his nose and mouth were really about to start showing good. We now had two boys and two babies left.

Later that night Daddy's friend Tim came to visit us at the hospital. While he was visiting, I felt fluid start to leak out of me. I knew something was wrong, so I told Kevin and the nurse came in to check me. They took me to labor and delivery because they thought I might be getting ready to deliver. Sure enough I was having membrane rupture again, but the baby hadn't dropped yet so they took me back to my room. I was extremely sad all day the next day because I knew what was happening and I knew it wouldn't be long before I had to go through this again. That day someone from the church came and prayed with my mom and I. Kevin had gone home to get some bags together and get a shower. Later that evening, July 15th, I went to the restroom and I noticed a colored discharge and I had seen that once before. I called the nurse and told her what I had experienced and that I knew something was happening. She didn't think so, but she checked me and sure enough I was getting ready to deliver again. So, back to labor and delivery I went. This time was different and scary and a waiting game. I had a lot of time to think about things even in the midst of all the chaos. Jessica had come to visit, right in the middle of all of this. I remember her bringing me a cookie bouquet and saying "I don't think this is going to help"! Bless her heart, she was pregnant at the time too and it was too much for her to stay in there with me. We of course didn't want her to be overly emotional and risk her baby either. So, everyone waited outside except for Kevin and I. I could feel the baby dropping and the doctors had come in and advised me this was likely to continue to happen and that next time it might be worse. They wanted Kevin and I to make a decision to end the pregnancy and induce labor for the remaining baby. I remember thinking to myself, they CAN NOT be asking me this right now in the middle of all of this. Are they serious???? I remember holding the baby in as we tried to decide what to do. We really struggled and felt so emotionally drained and exhausted. We both cried and cried and we didn't know what to do anymore. It would be the hardest decision we would ever have to make. After a quick and careful discussion we decided to give the last baby a chance also as we had done with all the other babies. I knew after making this decision it was time to deliver and with two pushes we delivered another boy at 5:20 pm on June 15th. We named him Kody Austin Lloyd.

Kody was much bigger than the other boys and much more developed. Kody weighed 6 oz and was 8 inches long. He was the length of my arm between my wrist and elbom. We were amazed and the difference between you and his brothers and just being one day apart in delivery from our second son. The top of his head was dark, so we could tell his hair was about to start coming in. His hands and toes were also apart and not webbed. His nose and mouth were much more distinct and his lips weren't fused together. I remember how big his thighs were and I was like he would have been our football player! He was precious! We figured that you and Christian had to be the identical twins and that you probably got most of the nourishment because you shared the same placenta. He was our fighter, we found out the next day that he actually tried to take a breath when he was delivered, but your lungs just weren't ready to work yet. We had to sign the papers for the death certificate. He was considered stillborn because he was alive and tried to breathe but couldn't. That broke my heart!